Blessed

Today was the last day of school before winter break.  Its a little bitter sweet.  I get a chance to do some things in our new place that I haven't had a chance to do but, I will miss having a pay check.  I never wanted to be one of those single moms who worked 2 jobs.

It would be painfully grueling and hard on my children who have already dealt with enough.  Let alone hard on me who already has sleep issues. I have no doubt that God takes care of me and will always take care of me.  I  just have to work harder at trusting Him.

I am blessed with a safe place to live but part of me still misses the old house.  I still miss the lake, I still miss my huge kitchen.  I miss drinking tea while sitting in the window seat.  I miss being able to hide in my walk in closet. 

I keep telling myself that I am blessed.  Blessed even though the kitchen is small.  Blessed even though I have one less bathroom and the walls are thin. 

I keep reminding myself that even though I no longer have the lake, I have a pool and a park within walking distance.

I keep reminding myself that even though I miss the deck that I stained last summer, I have a cozy balcony with a swing on it.

I keep reminding myself that although I had 3000 square feet, 1300 square feet isn't bad.

I keep reminding myself that every night I lay my head down I am safe and I am blessed.